never alone/sleeping under the stars it's a relationship. it's a commitment to one another. it's not a solo endeavour, and it's not all about you. it's not about going to movies or eating meals together. when you're in a relationship with someone, and they call your phone, and you chose not to answer, then how do you feel? guilty? if you care about the person, then the answer is probably a strong "yes." and life is not the same until you correct that issue.

sometimes I wonder if I'm a masochist, if I enjoy feeling lost so much, because I know that God will eventually be back, and it will be great. is that part of my free will?

maybe it's the humidity. or maybe it's just...me.


I'm tired and I'm listening to Tom Petty, the slow stuff. bad nights take forever/good nights never seem to last.

not what I should be doing.

I've been listening to The Beatles all day in the car, but not Let It Be. Now I kinda wish that I was. I also kinda wish I could throw away all my music and my movies and start fresh. I keep thinking someday.

Someday sucks.

I need to go pray.  ¶ 6/28/2007 11:13:00 PM