Monday, May 21, 2007
in which Josh apparently sucks at his job?
today I got told by a sort of professional colleague who I guess forgot who I was that I didn't know what I was doing. However since he forgot who I was, I guess he didn't realize that he was telling me that I really didn't know what I was doing.
does that make sense? talk about a blow to the ego. and I was feelin' pretty good today before that. I was in two meetings where the Governor (that's of the state) made an appearance. Had myself a nice suit on, listening to some Buffett in the car, sunroof open on a beautiful day.
so yeah in a way it kinda shook me, although I kinda got a little balance back from the person who is ultimately over the both of us (the one who controls the money) that I was very much a crucial part of the big picture operation. Although I have yet to really prove ourself, it is a work in progress. What makes me a little nervous about the whole thing is that the man who told me I suck and lack experience (to my face) actually, well you know, has experience and thus knows what he's talking about. I think.
I am coming to a very crucial point in my job. Not nesc. a tipping point, but in some ways that's what it is. Kinda somewhere in between a "tipping point" and a "point of no return." Mixed in with a point of "Ok, no more bullshit."
I'm so young, most days I just feel like I'm treading just to keep my head above water. And most days it comes up to my 'stache line. If I had a 'stache.
just have to keep at it though, you know? That's my professional life, and I have to show others that the work I'm doing is actually worth their effort to consider and pay for. That I'm a professional at my job and I can see the big picture and know how to get there. Yeah.
No shit. ¶ 5/21/2007 09:20:00 PM
does that make sense? talk about a blow to the ego. and I was feelin' pretty good today before that. I was in two meetings where the Governor (that's of the state) made an appearance. Had myself a nice suit on, listening to some Buffett in the car, sunroof open on a beautiful day.
so yeah in a way it kinda shook me, although I kinda got a little balance back from the person who is ultimately over the both of us (the one who controls the money) that I was very much a crucial part of the big picture operation. Although I have yet to really prove ourself, it is a work in progress. What makes me a little nervous about the whole thing is that the man who told me I suck and lack experience (to my face) actually, well you know, has experience and thus knows what he's talking about. I think.
I am coming to a very crucial point in my job. Not nesc. a tipping point, but in some ways that's what it is. Kinda somewhere in between a "tipping point" and a "point of no return." Mixed in with a point of "Ok, no more bullshit."
I'm so young, most days I just feel like I'm treading just to keep my head above water. And most days it comes up to my 'stache line. If I had a 'stache.
just have to keep at it though, you know? That's my professional life, and I have to show others that the work I'm doing is actually worth their effort to consider and pay for. That I'm a professional at my job and I can see the big picture and know how to get there. Yeah.
No shit. ¶ 5/21/2007 09:20:00 PM
