It's not worth it trying to be someone else I've been without internet at work for most of the day. Contrary to popular belief, however, the world did not cease to exist. I wouldn't really care except I've had absolutely nothing to do all day. So computer solitaire is was. And I hate wasting my life with solitaire.
Also you may noticed I changed the name of the blog. I'm a few months into Chapter 23 of my life, and it's turning out to be more interesting as myself than as someone else.
Of course being yourself isn't always easy. Sometimes you make mistakes and it usually becomes so much worse an incident when you find yourself looking back onto it. But it has been done and there's nothing that can undo the past. Not even a souped-up DeLoreon. So all we can do is focus on the present; something that all too often is impossible to accomplish. I'm reading a book right now in which the author Thomm Hartmann points out that so few of us ever really live in the moment. We focus on the past or the future: what we're having for dinner, how we will pay for our bills, what happens next (hour, day, week, year); or we are dwelling on past mistakes or regrets, instead of soaking up the glory that is what he calls being in the "presence" of the present. I guess my point is that we too often make life out to be so hard and it greatly affects how we live them and how we interact with the ones around us. So you use judgement and wisdom and find the best way to handle the situations as they come your way. And when that doesn't work, you turn on that Kelly Clarkson song Breakaway and cry yourself to sleep like a little girl.

My sister just bought me the first season of Scrubs on DVD, so you'll have to forgive me if I try and end every dramatic moment with a quasi-comedic upturn.  ¶ 7/19/2005 04:40:00 PM